voices in my head

Dear stranger , In over the timeline of recent four years, my heart has become a blackhole stuffed with negative thoughts. And even though I try hard, there’s nothing I can do about it.  And like every other weird and misanthropic people, I too find relief from this pain by pouring my feelings in the form of words.  So I don’t blame you for distancing yourself from me. It was surely the logical thing to do. Even though there were some similarities between us, you were so full of life and it scared me. Overdosed by overthinking, I have come to the realisation that when you go on the quest of finding the meaning of life, you’re actually forgetting to live. By finishing this note, I promise myself to disconnect from all the thoughts and dreams where you appear to be the protagonist. After all, how can you run from what’s inside you? Sending you love and care, a hopeless romantic . *play melancholy song ***

Scene 1 You're traveling back from your home to college, even though you don't want to. You’re sitting on the window seat on the bus. You’re surrounded by about 40 strangers. No one knows a thing about you. You’re alone and not alone at the same time. A cool breeze along with a light rain shower is setting the mood. As usual, the earphones are plugged in deep. Your perfectly crafted playlist is playing. It’s been a rough few weeks. You have been trying really hard to keep up a clear mind. You’re now on the outskirts of the city. And it’s raining, like a light shower. Along comes a cool breeze. It’s slowly wetting your hands. But you don’t want to close the shutter. A few drops have fallen over your eyes. It’s almost midnight, but you don’t want to close your eyes. You want to brace and feel it. You want to feel it all. Every drop of it, every wave of cool air passing by you. You want this night to never end. And you realize there’s this happiness com

It's raining. Where'd all the fireflies go? I remember back in the days when I'd see a firefly and after hours of struggle, I'd finally be able to trap it inside a little medicine bottle. They usually appeared during the power cuts at night and came in pairs. Where'd all the fireflies go? I miss the fireflies. I miss the old days. I miss the old me. At one point you're in your childhood and all you want is to grow up and get into college. You buy college notebooks even though you only need a small 100 page notebooks for your school. Because you can't bear the excitement and the waiting. You already want to feel like a grownup. And years pass by fast and without even knowing you're now in college.  But somehow you feel lost and empty. The years you thought that was going to be the most exciting in your whole life has turned out to be the most mundane. You feel overwhelmed by the responsibilities and suddenly everyone

I think a lot about the moon lately. I want to shout to all the people in the world, “hey guys, aren’t you seeing this? I mean I’m walking and it follows me like a shadow. I’m running faster and somehow it’s able to catch up with me. I’m driving slowly and, Oh boy, it’s slower now. It’s there when the sun sets. It’s there even when the sun is rising. We think it’s so close to us, Because we can see it so clearly,  The cracks and the patches When in fact it’s 384400 kilometers away *(details, I fuckin’ love them) Oh, moon   You’re so underrated, Even than the second  man who walked over you. I wish I could be like you I wish everyone was like you You do your part in the universe  You do not complain  You glow happily ever after Oh, fun question  What do teens mean exactly when they say ”I love you to the moon and back” Oh oh, and fun fact Moon doesn't produce its own light It reflects light from the sun.

Hey, my first crush I’m eternally grateful that I’d met you And for the little time I got to spent with you I know it’s been months since we’ve part our ways And I know you’ve got a guy now Better, not weird at all, mature enough But I want you to know that There’d always be a piece of you inside me And I wish you happiness, Wherever you are Whoever you are with This doesn’t mean I’ve forgotten you I miss you every day  I wish they made the course a little longer And of course the most difficult thing  To do is to unlove Is that even a word? Don’t know, don’t care I don’t understand why there never was someone Before or after you Maybe its ‘cause you were the reference  And you were infinitely perfect I know ours wasn’t a love story Because we were never in love So what were we, cherries? Two people who helped each other To get through one rough year? I never understood that Zindagi, he na? And I know that there was nothi

                               Mountains are there to be climbed. After the classic champions league match in Old Trafford, we are all waiting for the second leg. At Trafford, the Valverde side managed to win with a crucial away goal. Almost a week after that both sides meet again at the Camp Nou for the final clash.  A sneak peek to team news and possible lineups. The Catalans had to agree with a goalless draw against Huesca. Jean-Clair Todibo, Maussa Wague, Riqui Puig, Jeison Murillo, and Kevin-Prince Boateng got a chance to play in the starting eleven in the league match. Valverde side gets the chance to rest their players for the next big match. The Catalans have almost secured their title and they are just 6 games away from it by a margin of 9 points. Barcelona have failed to qualify for the champions league semi-final since 2015. They are currently on an unbeaten streak at Camp Nou since 2013. The Messi side also didn't lose in a single match this ch

Directed by: John Madden Language: English Year: 2011 Genre: Drama, Comedy Starring: Judi Dench, Bill Nighy, Penelope Wilton, Dev Patel, Celia Imrie, Ronal Pickup Based on: These Foolish Things by Deborah Moggach Synopsis A decrepit hotel hosts seven British tourists who come to Jaipur on a holiday. Each one has a past and a new ambition. Their lives intervene with their host, who is also trying to get a grip on life. My view The Best Exotic Marygold Hotel is a retirement destination in Jaipur, India for the "elderly and beautiful". A group of seven British with seven different reasons come here.  1. Evelyn Greenslade - Forced to sell her London flat. 2. Michel Donelly - Hates foreigners, but in need of cheap hip replacement. 3,4. Douglas & Jean Ainslie - Not so happy couple and also has lost a bundle of money on their daughter's internet company. 5. Graham Dashwood - Had spent his happiest youth year

I don’t think god’s greatest gift to us is the air we breathe or the planet we live in. It’s memories.  Yes, isn’t it wonderful that we can go back to our life’s most wonderful events without actually being there? Isn't it wonderful that even after a person has left our lives, we’re able to live happily just by thinking about the memories we had with them? Isn’t it wonderful that we can totally lighten up our mood just by thinking about one of the funny moments from our childhood?  We understand ourselves based on the nostalgic view we have of ourselves. Time goes by pretty fast, and one day you turn back and realize that you are less the person you once knew. We run through nostalgic archives of our childhood and we say, “My god, I was so happy back then”. We grow up and we even forget what it was like, to be free and happy at the same time.   Doesn’t the word ‘nostalgia’ itself bring happiness to our lives? We live by memories every day, whether good or ba

I am in pieces.  I can't think of anything good to do. I look into all these peoples faces and I wonder how they just go with them the flow. This has to get better. You lose pieces of your life every once in a while. You can either find a new piece or you can live a whole miserable, tedious life trying to retrieve that lost piece.  Life is a maze that you'll never be able to find your way out from. Love is a riddle that you'll never be able to find an answer for.  Yet you run, trying to find that exit door, looking for answers of rhetorical questions.  You know the path you chose is gonna get you hurt. But you can't turn back now because what else is there? We've all been there. That phase in life when you feel like everything is falling apart. That there's isn't a single thing you can do to make it alright.  Stephen Hawking said, ”However bad life may seem, there's always something you can do to succeed at it. Where ther

മധുരം മധുരൈ. ഇത് എല്ലാ പ്രാവശ്യവും പോലെ ഒരു സാധാ യാത്ര ആയിരുന്നില്ല. ഒരുപാട് നല്ല അനുഭവങ്ങൾ തന്ന , ഒരു ലോ ബഡ്ജറ്റ് ട്രിപ്പ്‌ എന്ന് വേണേൽ പറയാം.കുട്ടിക്കാലം തൊട്ടേ ഉള്ളിലുള്ള ആഗ്രഹമാണ് ഒറ്റയ്ക്ക്ഒരു യാത്ര. എന്നാൽ അതിനിയും നീണ്ടു പോകുന്നു. പുസ്തകങ്ങൾ  കൊണ്ട് നമ്മുക്ക് അറിവ് നേടാനാവുമായിരിക്കും, എന്നാൽ ചുറ്റിലും ഒന്ന് ശ്രദ്ധിച്ചു നോക്കി ഒരു നടത്തം നടന്നാൽ ഒരുപാട് കാഴ്ചകളായിരിക്കും നിങ്ങളെ കാത്തിരിക്കുന്നത്. അത് തന്നെ ആണ് ഈ  ലോകത്തിലെ ഏറ്റവും നല്ല യൂണിവേഴ്സിറ്റി , അവിടെ കിട്ടുന്നത് വില കൊടുത്ത് വാങ്ങാൻ കഴിയില്ല എന്നൊരു വ്യത്യാസം മാത്രം. :"നിക്ക്  നിക്ക് ..!!" :"എന്തേയ്!? :"കാര്യം പറയാതെ കാട് കയറല്ലെന്റെ ചങ്ങായി ....!" :"മറന്നു വെറുപ്പിക്കുന്നില്ല ...കാര്യത്തിലേക്ക് കടക്കാം ." വെറുപ്പിക്കുന്ന ക്ലാസ്സ്‌ ടൈമിൽ ഞാൻ  ഫ്രണ്ട് അജ്വദിനോട്   മധുരയ്ക്ക് കോളേജിന്റെ മുന്നിലെ  കിളികൊല്ലൂർ  റെയിൽവേ സ്റ്റേഷനിൽ നിന്ന് തന്നെ ഒരു പാസ്സന്ജർ ട്രെയിൻ ഉള്ള കാര്യം പറഞ്ഞു ....വീക്കെൻഡ് ആണ് വരുന്നെ ...വെറുതെ  ഹോസ്റ്റലിൽ ചടചിരിക്കുന്നതിലും നല്ലത് എവിടേക്കെങ്കിലും വെച