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I don’t think god’s greatest gift to us is the air we breathe or the planet we live in. It’s memories. 

Yes, isn’t it wonderful that we can go back to our life’s most wonderful events without actually being there? Isn't it wonderful that even after a person has left our lives, we’re able to live happily just by thinking about the memories we had with them? Isn’t it wonderful that we can totally lighten up our mood just by thinking about one of the funny moments from our childhood? 

We understand ourselves based on the nostalgic view we have of ourselves. Time goes by pretty fast, and one day you turn back and realize that you are less the person you once knew.

We run through nostalgic archives of our childhood and we say, “My god, I was so happy back then”. We grow up and we even forget what it was like, to be free and happy at the same time. 

Doesn’t the word ‘nostalgia’ itself bring happiness to our lives? We live by memories every day, whether good or bad. And the fact that some memories stick with us and some fades away makes it more majestical. 

After all, we aren’t allowed to take our money or possessions to our graveyard.
Memories... just pure, old memories. Sayonara
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