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All the people I wonder about.





This monotonous life

I am so tired of pretending

I feel like I’ve pretending for so long

That I forgot what I was really like before


We were sitting under a banyan tree

And a friend of mine said,

“No one knows the real you”

And that is the truest thing 

someone has told me all my life

And that’s all I ever wanted to be

A mystery

An enigma

I don’t want to be your answers

I am questions

More and more questions

Rhetorical fucked up questions


So fucking tired of this overflow of 

Abundant thoughts into my head

And I wish I could be like you

Oh, how I wish I could be like you.


You thrive by meeting new people

I survive by being left alone

You write relevant stuff

I pour out my sadness

You are a free bird

I am entrapped forever 

In the cage that is my mind



You live in the moment

I overthink the fuck out of it

You’ll hold her hand

I’d push her away 

in the fear of sucking her to the void too

You vibe with people

Me, the CEO of awkwardness 



You smoke stuff to think heavy

I don’t want to think anymore

You smile at everyone

I’m so fucked up I can’t cry

You live life to the fullest

I am falling

I am falling

Into the void that is my mind



You’ll never know me

I pity you

You'll live

What if I fucking die?








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